I was going through the files on my computer today and I came across my school work from 2011. This one assignment caught my eye. It was from English class and we were studying A Streetcar Named Desire. We were asked to create a monologue for a character and fit it into the story. This was mine. I couldn’t help but laugh. The writing wasn’t the greatest but I liked the direction I painted the monologue. It’s always fun to look back and see how far we’ve come in our craft. Enjoy!
Blanche: [Swings open the bathroom door in a hurry, hair wet and donning a red silk robe.]
My I love bathes, I know I take many. I’m sorry for the up in your water bill but you don’t need to yell at me like that! I’ve done things I’m not proud of yes, that’s why I take so many. It’s my own demented way of coping. I wash my hair and I wash my body and I always feel brand new after, even if for only a little while. I wish I could stay that way . . . but I can’t escape my past. [Puts a hand to her brow.] That boy, that dear seventeen year old boy, he was a mistake . . . I thought I loved him. He bought me flowers and winked at me in class, he had me giggling like a little school girl. But I was a fool to lead him on, which is what I thought I was doing . . . but I not only lead him on, I returned his affection. What was I thinking? I suppose I thought he could be my handsome love, to replace my dead one. He wrote me letters, love letters as a matter of fact. Ones so steamy they could melt the ice cubes in your lemonade. [Sighs.] I needed someone to treasure me, I always need to be treasured; I can’t stand on my own. The presence of a man keeps me at ease. And I suppose that’s why I go after Mitch. He’s stable and reliable. Perhaps one day we’ll have a quaint little weddin’ ceremony. I’ll have a lily in my hair and he’ll look dapper as can be. And we’ll say our vows and kiss and settle down in a little summer house and have cute little babies . . . but that’s just a dream of mine. A silly little dream. Are you happy? Is this what you wanted to get from me? To spill all my locked up secrets? [Sarcastic.] Well aren’t you a big man Stanley! Don’t tell me your hands are spiffy clean! You walk around like you’re the king of everything, having my poor little sister scrub and cook and – and . . . please you! [Points a shaky finger at Stanley and shouts.] You are despicable! [Takes a few breathes and looks from Stella to Stanley and back, with her hand clutched to her chest, her fighting spirit is deflated.] Perhaps one day I’ll soak long enough my sins and downfalls flow through my pores and out into my jasmine bath water . . .
Where should this go in the play that would be the most effective?
I feel this would be most effective in the scene where Blanche was bathing and while she’s occupied Stanley takes the opportunity to fill Stella in on her sister’s past. Blanche could over hear the conversation and go out to defend herself. This would confirm the rumours Stanley was retelling and could deepen Blanche’s character. Revealing things about herself instead of lying would be interesting.
Peace & Love,
Fall onto the fire
Trying to extinguish the flames,
But they sizzle out.
Because shedding blood alone
Can’t put the fire out.
But if we bleed together,
We can stop the blaze.
We can inhale the smoke
And disappear into the night,
Like so many shadows.
A house isn’t a home
But a home can be a house
Like standing on the street in the dark alone
Loud like a train station
Quiet like a library
So many books strewn around
Buried in words
Words screamed in faces
Words whispered behind backs
A coliseum of conflicting opinions
A sing song around a camp fire
Works of art on the walls
Some painted with brushes
Others with fists
Loner in a crowded place
Crowded in your own room
In a room that isn’t really yours
See yourself in the mirror
In the eyes of your family
In your reflection in the window
Looking out at out people’s houses
Other people’s homes
Do they live in homes or houses?
You fill me up like summer rain.
An empty gas tank pumped with octane.
A dehydrated man offered a bottle of water.
After six sons, finally a daughter.
With love, you fill me.
Those that say they love all,
And those that say they love few,
Are one in the same.
Because love is not dependant on the quantity,
But the fulfillment of one’s own heart.
one word moniker,
having the magical ability to disappear
when needed most.
Show me a magic trick
that doesn’t involve smoke and mirrors.
You put love in a box
and failed to make it reappear.
you sawed my heart in half
and wheeled it back stage.
you pulled my emotions from your sleeve.
like colorful scarves,
and discarded them to the audience.
You locked me in a container of water
and made me hold my breath, while you held the key.
but I’ve learned a few things being a magician’s assistant,
and soon I’ll be the one pulling the disappearing act.
This is one of the most moving and beautiful songs I have ever heard. The lyrics are so emotional and the piano melody is haunting. Take a listen and I hope it touches you too!
“Be somebody who makes everybody feel like a somebody.”
Our job in life is not to make people around us feel lesser. If we are here, we mind as well make life a little brighter. If you have the opportunity to do that for someone else, do it. Cheer them up, comfort them, lend a hand, offer help, do whatever they need in order to feel better. Nothing feels better than that warm feeling around your heart when you truly help someone. So instead of tearing someone down, build them up. People will think of you as someone to remember, because chances are they haven’t had many people do that.